WERE YOU HERE AND WERE YOU REAL?

yesterday was good. with so much of ice cream, i was clearly showing signs of a sugar rush. bitching sessions were good. and times spent with my darlings was a better choice.

Cecilla,
i dont know why you said what ever you said. look around you and realise that you're not who you think you are. i'll look past your fucked up trespasses, only because you were drunk. dont say things you dont know. one of these days, someone in class in going to bring you down so bad. everyone wants to do it, it might as well be me. if i was up to my limit.
it takes alot for me to me angry.

ben,
don't judge me. because you dont know me. do you even try? i guess not. forgive me for being nervous around you. it should be just natural. like what kai told me. we'll see, on the 6th. i'm in no mood to tell you everything right now. because i'm afraid of what might happen if i do.
you told me, if the feeling is right.
who knows? when you get to know me. it might be right.

there is no one online for me to talk to.
i saw rick yeasterday. you've been missed.

i saw hafiz yesterday too! but he didn't let me bite him.

today is a day for rest.
nicky, honestly, i dont know what going on in your mind. i know tht you have a thing for me. everyone knows actually. you're starting to sound like me talking to ben. except that i'm nicer to you than ben is to me. give up.

i wanna go see joshua!

they say that i was to be the next PSM. and then now they say that i'm in the running for MIT. so what now? if nothing is going to go on soon. i guess i'll have to look for another job.
thank you very much.